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Frustration
Dec. 10th, 2006 11:43 amIt's not that I'm depressed. The blip of the other day didn't last long and the day afterwards I felt cheerfully resigned to the fact that life is a bit of a nightmare at the moment.
No, I'm cheerful enough. It's just that, well, I feel the urge to be with a load of people having a good natter.
That's the trouble with Twenty-first Century Sciety - everything seems to be geared to doing everything in the privacy of your own home. I don't want to chat on the 'Net. I don't want to chat on the phone. I want to be in a real-time, live, gathering of congenial people.
That's the contradiction in my life I suppose. My squirrel says I come across as fiercely independent, and I know I can be very protective of my own space. But I am also gregarious. I can be lonely in a crowd where I feel everything is going on around and despite me, but when I look back on the happiets times in my life, they have been times when I have been a real part of a gathering.
I want one of those now, and I haven't the first idea where to look.
No, I'm cheerful enough. It's just that, well, I feel the urge to be with a load of people having a good natter.
That's the trouble with Twenty-first Century Sciety - everything seems to be geared to doing everything in the privacy of your own home. I don't want to chat on the 'Net. I don't want to chat on the phone. I want to be in a real-time, live, gathering of congenial people.
That's the contradiction in my life I suppose. My squirrel says I come across as fiercely independent, and I know I can be very protective of my own space. But I am also gregarious. I can be lonely in a crowd where I feel everything is going on around and despite me, but when I look back on the happiets times in my life, they have been times when I have been a real part of a gathering.
I want one of those now, and I haven't the first idea where to look.
