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enitharmon ([personal profile] enitharmon) wrote2008-08-29 01:09 pm
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Coping

Yeah, well, I'm pretty rubbish at coping, aren't I?

One setback and I turn into a gibbering wreck. Everything I've achieved over the years vanishes from sight. Paranoia seeps through the cracks in my shell. I get that old, old feeling that goes back to being at school, that the world is scrutinising me minutely, waiting for me to fail so that I can be publicly humiliated and made to recognise my worthlessness.

I need a survival strategy. I have one, in part. Running helps. So do long walks on the beach. Even though reading when I'm agitated is not easy, and writing is impossible because I feel the scrutiny of those eyes, waiting for the slip-up, doing the cross-stitch is soothing for short periods. But I need something else, I think.

Do others have a coping mechanism that they'd like to suggest?

[identity profile] angelofboox.livejournal.com 2008-08-29 07:56 pm (UTC)(link)
Hello, Rosie =)

[identity profile] swanofkennet.livejournal.com 2008-08-30 11:07 am (UTC)(link)
Ooh, hello Jaya! Great to hear from you again, it's been such a long time!

[identity profile] angelofboox.livejournal.com 2008-08-30 03:17 pm (UTC)(link)
Has it? I do read your journal (I read everyone's on my flist - but don't often click links or cuts, which is why I miss a few things). In response to this entry I must say I don't think I have a coping mechanism! Otherwise I would have actually coped with life...rather than spending countless years under a depression cloud. But I'm mostly okay now, so something must have worked.

When you said that you had nobody to go for a drink in the pub with I was going to offer (but I never did) - we could meet up in the middle somewhere (Lancaster?) - I have no friends in Manchester.*

I too can only knit straight rows. I could do knit one-purl one...but can't now remember and think I always used to get confused anyway. I have only ever knitted scarves.

*Except now Niall (don't hate me but I love him).

[identity profile] swanofkennet.livejournal.com 2008-08-31 09:47 am (UTC)(link)
Lancaster would be nice but I'm overdue a major shopping excursion to Manchester (a coping strategy in itself - and Manchester also has two Lushes and a Hotel Chocolat!)

I know Niall is not my number one fan exactly but I have no axe to grind with him, so no problem there.